Not Sure If…

I’ve failed my year or I can get a one time pass. Hear me out.

My vacation for thanksgiving was probably the biggest drain I have experienced in the last year or so.  I guess spending that much time with family (not necessarily all people I like, but still must love), and doing that much driving was too much for me.  I am, literally, spent.  Add to that giving a giant fuck you to my normal, for me, sleep schedule and I have been unable to drag myself to the computer to play Starcraft.  At first, I thought I would just marathon the hours the next day, then the next.  It adds up quickly.  I then, for a bit, contemplated just giving it up.  Which made me feel even worse.

I mean, how could I stop now?  I’m at basically the half way point.  I can do this, I know I can. More importantly, I want to do this.  Starcraft has become my hobby.  It is the thing I think about, the thing I want to talk about and watch if I’m not playing.  A week off because of outside influences doesn’t seem that horrible when I look at it like this.  But I actually feel pretty bad.  I’ve been beating myself up everyday about it.  It seems so stupid to screw up the thing I set up to keep myself working at something.  And to those of you following me, I’m sorry.  I feel I’ve let you and myself down, but I want to keep going.

So I’m asking for a one time pass on the week, and to add it to the end of my year.  Also, I will not take a day off for two months.  If I don’t get a deluge of “You failed” comments or the like, I’ll go ahead with this and be on track to finish my year on June 15 instead of 8th.

Goodnight and GLHF.