A Year of Starcraft II

Not Sure If…

I’ve failed my year or I can get a one time pass. Hear me out.

My vacation for thanksgiving was probably the biggest drain I have experienced in the last year or so.  I guess spending that much time with family (not necessarily all people I like, but still must love), and doing that much driving was too much for me.  I am, literally, spent.  Add to that giving a giant fuck you to my normal, for me, sleep schedule and I have been unable to drag myself to the computer to play Starcraft.  At first, I thought I would just marathon the hours the next day, then the next.  It adds up quickly.  I then, for a bit, contemplated just giving it up.  Which made me feel even worse.

I mean, how could I stop now?  I’m at basically the half way point.  I can do this, I know I can. More importantly, I want to do this.  Starcraft has become my hobby.  It is the thing I think about, the thing I want to talk about and watch if I’m not playing.  A week off because of outside influences doesn’t seem that horrible when I look at it like this.  But I actually feel pretty bad.  I’ve been beating myself up everyday about it.  It seems so stupid to screw up the thing I set up to keep myself working at something.  And to those of you following me, I’m sorry.  I feel I’ve let you and myself down, but I want to keep going.

So I’m asking for a one time pass on the week, and to add it to the end of my year.  Also, I will not take a day off for two months.  If I don’t get a deluge of “You failed” comments or the like, I’ll go ahead with this and be on track to finish my year on June 15 instead of 8th.

Goodnight and GLHF.


10 responses to “Not Sure If…

  1. Joe November 30, 2011 at 2:36 am

    Dude, you took one week off, not a single fuck was given.

    What we really want to see is you getting back at it.

    Stop being so hard on yourself, GL HF GG!

  2. slacker November 30, 2011 at 7:29 am

    Don’t avoid taking days off; it’ll just burn you out more quickly. Instead, force yourself to sit down and play 4 games. That’s all. By the time you’re done, you’ll remember why you like playing the game. That’s what it usually takes for me to get back in to it; to help me get over that mental block.

  3. LeChuck November 30, 2011 at 9:18 am

    First of all:
    We all need breaks. If you end it to the end of the year, having a week off is perfectly fine.
    Also, don’t get rid of your regular days off. You need them.

    Good luck have fun

  4. Dave November 30, 2011 at 12:42 pm

    taking a week off is no biggy! you might find you play better, having time for your mind to accumulate what you have learned. 🙂 keep at it, see you in the stream 🙂

  5. Henk de Slager November 30, 2011 at 1:23 pm

    Dude, it’s just a week off. No problem. GL HF.

  6. Cody November 30, 2011 at 2:42 pm

    Did you see State of the Game last night? They briefly touched on how exhausted everyone was getting. E-sports sort of takes a break in December, and everyone involved loves it and looks forward to their rest.

    If people getting paid nearly $100,000 to play / cast starcraft need a break around the holidays, I don’t know what sort of madman you’d have to be to beat yourself up for taking one also.

  7. r44b November 30, 2011 at 3:09 pm

    I see your frustration, but I hope and believe that you will conquer it and be back within some days.

    As previously said, we all need breaks!

  8. HTMC November 30, 2011 at 7:26 pm

    Pretty much agree with what everyone else has already said. Don’t beat yourself up over it; we’re all humans, we’re allowed the occasional mistake 😛

  9. jasklasd fajklea November 30, 2011 at 7:31 pm

    Keep going!

  10. badges December 1, 2011 at 7:21 pm

    Dude, no way are you allowed to stop! I wouldn’t have any more awesome updates to read!

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